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If you want decent content go see my old website (link below) cause this is a messy work in progress
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If you want decent content go see my old website (link below) cause this is a messy work in progress
What do i not sure what to put here yet lol |
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7/19/2023 at approx 2:56pm: I have it all I have all I could ever want, but still i feel this sense of God i fucking hate myself so much i want to change i hate the person I am I will never get better So all I do is stir up problems out of envy .If I gave up on trying to be the best version of myself I would have no purpose in life . All I do is try and try and try and push myself to become prettier and more attractive because i am nothing. And some people might think but wait , You’re already pretty? But I do not see myself like that. My big nose and my fried hair and my soft jawline will never be beautiful enough. I want to be an angel
7/18/2023 at approx 12:07am:
Sell That Ye Have,
237 countries, |
“If the world hates you, keep in
Matthew 25:40, “And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.” Caring and making a difference is what Christianity is all about.
Another Gospel
How to Win a Soul to Jesus
“If [God] has work for me to do, I cannot die.”
A Broken Heart Because Of The Consequences Of Sin; But The
Blood Of Jesus Goes Deeper Than The Stain Has Gone!
Awesome Soulwinning MP3 Sermons
GOD CARES!!!
4/19/2023 at approx 10:50pm: i dont like these names i dont like myself i am not the person i want to be and i never will be the person i want to be//i am losing myself every day and i need to escape this vessel//my body takes up too much space and i want to be small//unseen//unheard//my bones are too big and my ribcage is too wide//all eyes on me//my words are too loud my voice is too deep//everyones listening//my skin is pink and raw from hours of staring//probing//prying because aiming to be perfect is the only thing that keeps me going//no matter the clothes i wear or the way i do my hair no one will perceive me differently//i will always be loud and outgoing and even though this is who i truly am i dont like it//i want to be petite and frail and i want to disappear into nothing because i am nothing
7/25/2023 at approx 3:59pm: the concept of having my own private space to do whatever i want is actually mind-boggling. and by private space i mean this site. its freedom. everytime i remember that free will exists i am completely baffled. anyway, right now, i am in a strange depressive state. i feel like im falling apart, but once something happens such as texting my boyfriend or fting the gc, im completely fine. and then five minutes after the activity ceases, im back where i started. this especially is rough during the summer due to lack of structure, and night time as well. night time always sucks for me because this is when my emotions get all fucky, like all the edgy guilt-trippy bullshit comes spewing out my mouth and every morning, i look back on what i said to people via text or what i posted on this site and i just die of cringe. you know, ive tried diaries, but something about it just doesnt cut it for me. after i realized diaries didnt work, i tried vent accounts on twitter. but that shit didnt work either for 2 reasons: one, i was known. there was a name attached to my profile. i want someone to hear me, but i dont want them to know it was me. even though the limited amount of people on that account are people i trust deeply, they were still perceiving me and judging me. it was above their control though. i couldn't handle it. i can not handle being known or being perceived. and two, i kept getting fucking banned due to the graphic nature of the shit i was posting on there. you know you're in a bad mental state when you have to code your own fucking website in order to not get censored. the good thing about having this site though is that i get the attention but still have anonymity. lots of people are probably wondering why this shit is public, and theres one good answer for that: attention seeking behavior! i feel much more soothed after typing all that out because ive been replaying a similar manifesto over and over again in my head for weeks
12/18/2023 at approx 7:07pm: You sound like him ∙ Its making me sick ∙ Can't you have fun without drugs? ∙ Can't you see how you're stressing me out? ∙ Why is it so hard for you to understand?
Where
will you spend eternity?
“America has become a nation of
sodomites 7/02/2022 at approx. 10:54pm: three days ago, i overfilled a glass and i grabbed the glass and put in a handful of ice and i then took the juice out of the refrigerator and started to pour it into the glass but there was too much in the container and too much in the glass and by time i shouldve stopped pouring, there wouldve been too much in the bottle to put back but too much to throw away but too much to sip out of my glass and repour so instead i kept pouring and the glass overflowed all over the counter and all over the drawers and all over the floor and all over my hands and it soaked up my sleeves leaving permnanent pink streaks reaching up tp my elbows and i then threw away the bottle and got a towel to clean up the juice there is something oddly therapeutic about being in control because i chose to keep pouring and i chose to clean it up and one day i will have full control 7/2/2023 at approx 1:56pm:
The
Hurting Sinner Hurts Just As Much As The Hurting Saint
“More people will die and burn in Hell, because they're trusting
too much!” —Pastor Jack Hyles, “Yea,
Yea, And Nay, Nay!” |
COOL SITES BELOW!!
11/24/2023 at approx 9:20pm: its been a few months. seeings my logs on this site makes me realize that some things never change. i still want to kill myself and im still as jealous as ever. im a full-blown stalker at this point. i have photos and information all about her saved, and i dont feel guilty about it at all. she has a story up right now but nobody is screenshotting it for me and its making me uneasy knowing theres photos of her out there that i dont have. id do anything to just get her ti add me back on snap. he likes me more but i wanna become her. i dont know why. this isnt healthy. its been torturing me for months. im gonna become her. i wanna be a fake blonde like her. brown eyes and messy eyebrows and chunky mascara and freckles and fried hair. two syllable name and contantly stoned and lots of friends. im gonna die trying
7/21/2023 at approx 12:48pm: I want to disappear i'm a bad person i'm so mean i'm trying to justify it but i'm just mean maybe that's what i'm hiding cause it's shameful the need to be perfect cause it's the bare minimum i have nothing now nothing to latch onto if i keep going i'll be lost forever i'm trying to survive everyday without making any sense i'll be more and more alone
Marilyn Manson Exposed: Pt. 3
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People Just Want To Be Loved (a church right with God will just love the hell out of people)
“Without concern we're not Christlike. Without concern we're not Christlike. Ah, watch yourself. ... Now your greatest need as a Christian, and of every Christian, is a concern for lost and dying people. Without concern we're not Christlike. You have no claim to Christlikeness unless you're concerned about others. Without concern we're not obeying the Scriptures.” —Pastor Lee Roberson (1909-2007), from the needful sermon, The Revival America Needs | Download | [emphasis added]
Religion is the Worst Thing that Ever Happened! | Thieves and Robbers
Acts 26:18, “To
open their eyes, and to turn them from darkness to light, and from
the power of Satan unto God,
that they may receive forgiveness of
sins, and inheritance among them which are sanctified by faith
that is in me.”
We're all on the same journey, are you on the right path?
Each of the following printable King
James Version Bibles is formatted differently,
but they are all
the 1769 edition of the 1611 Authorized King James Bible...
MS Word file of complete King James Bible
MS Word files of Individual Books of the Bible (ZIP file)
PDF file of complete King James Bible
PDF of Individual Books of the Bible (ZIP file)
“John 14:12, 'Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that believeth on me, the works that I do shall he do also' ... 'For the Son of man is come to seek and to save that which was lost' (Luke 19:10) ... It is easy to see that Jesus sought the lost and came to save sinners. These are His works. The Bible says that we are to do those same works.” —Dr. Jack Hyles, EXPLORING PRAYER WITH JACK HYLES, chapter 31
Lord let me live from
day to day,
In such a self-forgetful way,
That even when I kneel to pray,
My prayer shall be for others.
Others, Lord, yes, others;
Let this my motto be.
Help me to live for others
That I may live like Thee.
